Another birthday has come and gone and I forgot about my bucket list, again. It’s always in the back of my mind but I don’t actively pursue it.

Last night I had an incredibly rare opportunity to do whatever I wanted all by myself. No kids, no husband, nothing and no one. Let me tell you it was a strange feeling. I decided to take myself out. I had a few hours to kill so I opted for a movie. Let me tell you the gamut of emotions I went through!

First I was excited to be checking something off my 40 by 40 bucket list. Then I was a little anxious to be going to a movie alone. Who goes to a movie alone, on a Monday night, at 930? Bring on the doubt. I shouldn’t go, this is silly I don’t want to be the only one in the theater making the employees stay late. Oh hello there sadness. Going to a movie alone? How pathetic you are! No one to spend time with but yourself? Guilt followed… which is probably was got me into the theater. I have this wonderful opportunity to do something I’ve been wanting to do and I’m not going to take advantage? GO!

I pulled into the parking lot which wasn’t as empty as I had imagined. I can do this! I already knew what I wanted to see, I had a few hours before I needed to be somewhere else. I waked in and purchased my ticket at the self checkout kiosk. One ticket for Ford V Firari, 930 showing.

I’ll admit i felt awkward from the moment I decided to see a movie up until 5 minutes into the film. I let out a few giggles here and there and shuffled them a bit but I was not the only person in the theater so I didn’t feel terrible.

Another item off the bucket list… two years left!